30 april

I gave up trying so hard, and just gave in to the way things are. It made for a much sweeter day.

29 april

Peace is every step. Believe it.

28 april

held together by deep breaths, iced coffee, evening walks and hugs.

27 april

26 april

easing into this new identity. today, friends told me he looks like me. life feels rich, expansive. I'm a very lucky girl.

25 april

it rained. he is over the moon. life is sweet. (and the ungodly heat is made better by iced coffee.)

24 april

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22 april

my life is quite simple these days: just do what's in front of you. simple, yet not easy. what's hard is resisting the urge to try to do more.

21 april

we flew solo today. it feels like a fresh beginning.

19 april

she's leaving us tomorrow, who has been with us for all of his little life. one chapter closes, another one begins. on the cusp: trepidation, hesitation, excitement.

18 april

best. news. ever.

17 april

so many people to love... and who love him. I can't wait to watch him develop relationships with the people who surround him.

16 April

could not have been a better day for it. even if I did come close to swallowing a bee.

11 april

"every question in life is HOW, and every answer is DO." -karen maezen miller

10 april

i am so grateful for his wisdom and encouragement. as he said, I have to resolve to soften what is hard in my heart.

First trip to the river

Sent from my iPhone

9 april

at first, I wasn't too happy to do it. but then, seeing him, eating curly fries-- I was pretty glad I did.

8 april

today, I have been both excited/pumped and overwhelmed/apprehensive about my life in the weeks to come. also, I've put my feet in the river.

7 april

my glass--it is so full.

6 april

two days without sitting or writing. and what two days they've been. nice to know my practices will still be waiting for me on the other side.

5 april

I wasn't all that excited to go, but once we got there, I remembered how much I like this place.

4 April

The day started with a bang--literally. Then followed much wailing and nose-blowing, from baby and I, respectively. Evening quiet sure feels good.

3 april

packing good snacks, getting in the car, changing landscapes: it's always been one of our favorite things to do. now, he gets to come along with us.

1 april

We were kept inside most of the day by the smoke of a nearby fire. I can't believe it's this hot already. I need a new plan, a better plan.